Deep sense of abandonment not being wanted.
I don´t recall that. I can´t recall being handed to a stranger in the streets of Budapest, because there´s nothing to recall with. Organs in brain, the hippocampus that encodes recall memory, it´s not developed yet. It doesn´t evolve till later, but emotional implicit memory of abandonment is deep in me.
When there is lost emotionally that translates into biology. Biology and emotions are completely inseparable. And what happens on the emotional plane inevitably will have its manifestations in a biological plane. So what you loose emotionally translates into biological events in your body and that begins with brain development. ADHD 9attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) - is an adaptive response to stress.
If I were to stress you right now, that is verbally abusive, emotionally insulting,
domineering, you would go into stress state and how could you deal with it? Well, you could just walk out the door or you could stand up and say, "you can´t talk to me like that, I will not accept it". And if you couldn´t walk out nor did you have the strength to confront me to fight back. But what if you could´t do any of those things, then how would you handle the stress? Well, you wouldn´t. Your brain would handle it by number of defense mechanisms. The salient of which would be dissociation. You dissociate, all of a sudden you´re not here. So simply a coping response it is.
The way we adapt to early stress, helps us endure that difficult period in life of helpless child, but those same adaptations become a source of pathology, threaten your health, threaten your longevity even. So what´s meant to be temporary state, becomes long term trait.
Credit to following video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z87r7-cA7bU